All the Single Ladies

M.A.N. was so fun! It was awesome to serve the men of our church fam in love ^^ and it was hella fun doing it haha

Dedications was probably the most heart-warming and beautiful part of the whole night. It was a short period of time where you could actually see the love shared between two people. I saw so much love, that i felt lonely. I am sure all you single ladies know what i'm talking about. Other sisters dedicating their boyfriends and husbands. It was like watching a really really good romantic chick flick! As much as it is good, it just makes u want u're other half that much more.

I know most, if not all, tend to look at themselves and blame themselves for being single. I do it all the time. But what I TRY to do is redo my thinking. I try to think of how God's timing is perfect. God knows what he's doing. Maybe it's not the right time. Maybe He doesn't think I'm ready.

Which got me to think.. instead of just looking for flaws in my physical appearance or personality and doing absolutely nothing about it, maybe I should b spending this time to improve who I am. Maybe, indeed.. i am not ready. I'm so gungho and all excited about marriage, but I don't know how to cook anything besides ramen, curry, pancakes, and fried egg. yupp, and that's not gunna keep a hubby happy.

This year I am challenging myself to improve me for my future man by learning to cook other things, to sacrifice my time for other people, and to become more physically fit. (new years resolution! possibly a life-time resolution) Pretty much become better wife-material ;)
I challenge all u other single ladies to do the same.

Home again

yesterday i attended the yunhap annual christmas party where pastor Ben told me he reads this blog ^^ so this one's about church

Walking into the christmas party in my ugly sea-urchin pompom sweater was quite nerve wracking haha. Going to school out of state immensely cripples u're ability to fellowship with people and get to know them. It also doesn't help that new people r joining our church fam every week >.< but anyway, it was super awkward the first like half hour while we were eating. I felt left out and like i didn't belong, and self conscious cuz of my ugly sweater. They did they're own thing, while i did mine. Then, one of the other out-of-staters started talking to me, then somehow we got merged into the group convo and soon the group wasn't a mob, it was each individual person, a face, a smile.

I think that's one of the wonderful traits of yunhap em. If you are outgoing, there are other outgoing people, if you enjoy being a bystander, there are other bystanders to keep you company, there are cliques, there r floaters, but one thing we don't have: outcasts. ^^